Nina and Yakov heard about what had happened when they were hiding in the dugout known as ‘malina’, the ‘raspberry patch’. They tried to get Rina back from Garkauskas, but he refused to hand her over. I explain this by the fact that Garkauskas must have been frightened for his own children, who would then all have been shot, if he had not given Rina up to the Germans. As it was, only he was arrested and taken off to prison. That was how Rina Gudinsky perished.
In 1969 Garkauskas turned up at our flat. He had heard that the Gudinskys had survived and gone to Australia where they were prospering. Garkauskas asked us to tell them that he wanted some money. I can remember how I started to shout at him, ‘You traitor, you were responsible for the death of Rina, how dare you after all that ask for anything, get out!’ My Lithuanian acquaintance, Valdas Zheromskis, who happened to be in our flat at the time, threw out the uninvited guest.
After the ghetto was disbanded, my mother was taken to Stutthof and my father to Dachau. By some miracle they both survived. The family had paid some Lithuanians in Kaunas to hide my paternal grandmother. Mother, who had given up hope that any of her local relatives might have survived, gave those Lithuanians the address of some of her American relatives.
After the liberation Nina and Yakov Gudinsky came out of hiding and straight away went to fetch me from my rescuers, who had looked after me out of the kindness of their hearts, without taking anything for it. They were simple folk and quite old by then. Unfortunately, despite all the efforts of our family, they were deported from Lithuania to Central Asia, because the husband was German. We used to correspond with them and send them parcels.
My cousin Rachel Blumenthal had been saved by one of the Baublys brothers. After the liberation she went to live with Gudinsky as well. To this day she cannot forgive herself for what she feels was a ‘betrayal’ of Baublys. I have only vague memories of the time I spent with the Gudinsky family. I remember I used to call Nina ‘Mama’ and Kuba ‘Papa’.
My father was liberated from Dachau and made his own way back home with some other Jews along rivers and eventually reached Kaunas. The Gudinskys learnt that my father had survived and told me that my real papa would be coming to find me. I remember sitting in Father’s arms. He said to me, ‘We’ll go and wash now and then we’ll go to bed’, to which I responded by asking, ‘Papa, why do you say “We” when you’re talking about yourself?’ And father had replied, ‘Because I’m big’.
A few months later Father learnt that my mother had survived as well and we waited impatiently for her to arrive. She came back to Kaunas and, when walking out of the railway station, she met a Jew whom she knew and who took her to where my father was working. The two of them walked home together and in the garden I was out playing with Ilana Kamber, who lived nearby. Father asked my mother which of the little girls was Mika and she recognized me straightaway. Father told me, ‘That’s your Mama. She has a doll for you.’ I do not remember if I felt any particular excitement or agitated emotions at the time.
My mother tried for many years to bring back her parents from Siberia, but with no success. My grandmother died in Yakutia and Grandfather Rafoel only came home after Stalin’s death in 1955; a mere two years later he died. My Aunt Lea and Uncle Yehuda had been allowed to leave Siberia earlier.
I graduated from the Kaunas Polytechnic Institute, married Josef Ash and in 1973 left for Israel, where I practised the profession for which I had been trained. I have three children: two daughters, Viki and Bela, and a son Uri, whose twin brother Giora was killed while doing his military service in the Israeli army. My father died in Lithuania, but Mother is still alive today. She is now 94 years old and completely independent, in relatively good health and very alert.
Kiron, Israel, February 2009
First published in 2011 by Vallentine Mitchell
London, Portland, OR