I was 8 when I was separated from my parents. Elena told the officers I was her niece. The German officers’ names were Hantz Hart and Shtekman; I remember Hitler’s portrait hanging in their guest room. The Germans treated me very well, especially Hart who was a very intelligent and pleasant person. I played the piano and spoke fluent French with him so he very early suspected I was Jewish. He persistently asked Elena if I was a Jewish girl. Yes, was her reply. After that Hart treated me even better. At some point he suggested taking me to Hanover in Germany to his family.
Soon after, Hart was transferred to serve in Latvia. We stayed with Shtekman. When he found out who I was, he gave Elena two weeks to find another shelter for me. She found a woman who agreed to keep me for payment, but not until certain arrangements were made.
In the meantime, Elena took me back to the ghetto, until false papers in the name of Danute Kazlauskaite were prepared. That was when the ‘Children’s Action’ took place. We went to the cellar, where behind the cupboard door was a secret room. Now I understood why my father had so often disappeared in the evenings: he and other men were digging a shelter for us. During those two terrible days we stayed in this room: my parents were with me, and Dr Perchikovitz’s family with their son Alik.
At one point a woman came in. Without saying a word she left us a crying baby and ran away. The baby cried all the time and in order to quiet him, Dr Perchikovitz had to inject him with morphine. The baby fell asleep, but not for long, so the injections were administered several times. At one point, we heard a Ukrainian policeman outside the door saying ‘There is somebody hiding there’, the cries of the baby may have attracted his attention. Yet somehow we were not discovered. The baby eventually died in the hideout. His mother never came to fetch him.
After the ‘Children’s Action’ it was impossible for children under 12 to appear on the streets of the ghetto; the policemen would capture them and take them away. I was coached to say I was 12, and my birth certificate was changed accordingly.
My aunt Anna (Niuta) Beilinson worked in the ghetto Workshtater, where they made wigs. She took me to work there and organized a certificate proving that I was working there. I made hair for dolls and even earned some food for my work. I remember once a German soldier caught me by my coat collar and shouted, ‘How old are you!?’ ‘Twelve and a half,’ I replied and showed him this certificate. Later Niuta was hidden by Lithuanians. For some reason she decided to change the hiding place and was killed during attempt to move there. After the war, Niuta’s sons, Yakov and Pavel Beilinson, who had served in the Soviet Army, were among a group of Jews who tried to escape from the USSR. It appeared there was a provocateur who led the group into the trap of KGB. Some were shot, and most, including Pavel, were arrested and spent ten years in Siberia. Yakov somehow succeeded in crossing the border to Poland and later he emigrated to the USA.
I was quickly transferred back to my nanny. Shtekman saw me and asked why I was still there. Elena promised to take me straightaway to the small town of Mazeikiai, if Shtekman would help her get permission to move from Kaunas to the province; he provided her with a permit and we left Kaunas. Our journey lasted a few days. We waited for our train in Shauliai where I saw a lot of wounded soldiers being transported, and this made a strong impression on me.
In Mazeikiai we lived with a teacher, a very brave, friendly woman called Evgenia Musteikiene. She had two daughters of her own, Laima and Tamara; everybody treated me very well. While we lived there Elena’s brother was arrested, taken to a jail in Shauliai and shot for rescuing POWs.
Hart visited us several times in Mazeikiai, always bringing food and presents. He still asked Elena to let him take me to Germany. When the front was nearing Mazeikiai and the Russians started bombardment and shelling, we all moved to a village called Krumaichiai. Elena returned to Kaunas. It appeared that Elena also saved the life of my cousin Lionia. However his twin sister, Zenia Volpert, was taken during the ‘Children’s Action’ and their parents perished in the concentration camps.
The German soldiers helped us to dig a shelter, and we hid there during the bombardments. One of the Germans was wounded and somebody in the shelter bandaged him. Suddenly armed Russians appeared and shouted to all of us, ‘Come out with your hands up.’ The children there, including me, started to cry. We were all so frightened, especially after the Russians saw the German soldier among us. At first, they were very angry, believing we were collaborators, but eventually they calmed down, arrested the German and released the rest of us. In 1945 Elena appeared in Krumaichiai and took me to Kaunas. I asked her about my parents and she told me they had been sent to the camps. Elena had witnessed the deportation as my parents were led away from the ghetto. As they left, they managed to point out to Elena the place where they had hidden their money and jewels. Most of the hidden valuables disappeared, but some of it Elena found and used to support us.
When mother’s best friend, Masha Gocaite, returned from Russia she found me and for some time we lived with her in Vilnius. Later my relatives, Sasha and Vera Rosenblum, collected me and I grew up in their house together with my cousin Ela, whom I regard as my sister. Elena became a governess at the house of Antanas Snechkus, the head of the Lithuanian Communist Party.
It was Alik Peretz’s mother who told me that my parents had not survived. Mother was shot in Stutthof and my father, although he was released from Dachau, died on his journey home. A group of released prisoners had found boxes of food. They had been starved and now devoured this food, but their bodies could not take it after such a long period of starvation.
Since I did not go to school before and during the war, there was a huge gap in my education. Although I spoke several languages, I did not know how to read or write. When my cousin, Aleksander (Vava) Rosenbum, a lawyer, came from Russia and began to correspond with me, I could not read his letters. Masha would help me with my schoolwork. Unfortunately Masha became sick and died at a young age. Vava supported me and helped me a lot in my future life.
Eventually I finished high school and the conservatorium in Vilnius and took a Masters degree in the Moscow Conservatorium. After completing my education I was sent to teach in Shauliai. Elena came to live with me.
When I applied for permission to emigrate to Israel, I was called to the KGB and asked, how can I leave Elena, who had devoted her life to me? My answer was, ‘We are going to Israel together’. After several threats and refusals we both received visas and came to Israel. We settled very well here, I started to work as a teacher in the Haifa Conservatorium and I still give piano lessons. In 1980 I married Yuri Lesokhin. Elena lived with me till she passed away at age of about 85. While still alive she had the great honour to be awarded the title of ‘Righteous Among the Nations’.
Haifa, Israel, 2009
First published in 2011 by Vallentine Mitchell
London, Portland, OR